I’m so angry about this issue in general but this video is a must watch for those interested in the abortion debate. I really wish politicians, religious people, etc. would stop pushing their ideals on America. I’m sick and tired of other people trying to control what I do with my body.
If I ever were to get pregnant anytime soon, I would terminate. I refuse to raise a child without completing my education or the having sufficient funds/well paying job. Also, I would not give up the child either because the foster care system is horrifying and the child would just go through so much mental anxiety. I will not bring a child into this world unless I know they will be raised correctly and loved deeply.
This distance is good for me. I at last feel at peace.
I’m not stressing over my job anymore; I love my new one so much. Nathan is such an amazing little boy and I can’t wait to meet Nora. I want children so badly then I ever have before.
I got away from almost all the shit in Santa Barbara and I broke ties with the person who constantly kept fucking with my emotions. I feel like I have to constantly tell people that I can’t tolerate being used over and over again as someone thats just needed until someone else comes around. I’m so exhausted from caring so much about people only to realize that when I need them, they aren’t there for me.
I’m also closer to the person I feel the most like myself with, the one that I know is right for me. He treats me right and does things that I’ve never had anyone do for me. I’m falling so hard for him but I know we can’t be together for reasons out of our control. I’m not even remotely interested in being with other people, he’s the only one I want. He’s also made me realize that I will always have doubts about other’s feelings towards me. Always. I’ve been abandoned by those I love too many times that I can’t help but feel that everyone will do that eventually.
I’m ready for this fresh start. I need this fresh start.